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Loss is also a physical thing

Loss is also a physical thing

If you would have asked me to describe stillbirth, pregnancy or infant loss before I experienced mine, I would have used keywords such as: heartbreak, emotional trauma, psychological trauma, and so on. Although that’s all accurate, there’s a lot more to it than just the mental, emotional and psychological effects. Physical trauma plays a big…

Every soul fights a different battle

Every soul fights a different battle

A fellow bereaved mother and I were talking about how it seems like the entire world around us seems to be having zero difficulties at having a healthy, happy, complete family. I know that many of us feel this way. Even when I wouldn’t wish this pain to anyone, having no one in your environment…

Coping with fear: Breathing

Coping with fear: Breathing

I’ve been reading up on techniques to handle anxiety and fear when they take over my thoughts and actions for a while now. One of the most simple techniques that keeps coming back in each and every resource I find about this topic, is breathing. It sounds crazy, but it truly is a very good…

Sahar’s space at home – Part 3

Sahar’s space at home – Part 3

This is part 3 of a series of posts I’ve been writing about how I am creating spaces at home to keep Sahar alive with us, to remember her always, and have everyone remember her with us when they see these spaces in our home. She was and will forever be my daughter, my firstborn,…

Coping with fear, a new series

Coping with fear, a new series

These last few weeks I’ve been struggling with a lot of fear, anxiety and worries. It’s holding me back in all my dreams and desires, and takes away the beauty in the everyday. I feel trapped in a hole I can’t get out of, and I realize that I’ve entered a vicious circle that I…

The prayer flag project

The prayer flag project

Tomorrow is the international day of hope. Tomorrow is a day in which we break the silence about our babies gone too soon, a day in which we celebrate their lives and their memory… It’s a day dedicated to our babies, a beautiful day. Since I have to go to work tomorrow, I decided to…

Perspectives on the future

Perspectives on the future

The future… That thing that brings a terrible amount of anxiety to my heart when I think about it. I wonder what’s coming, what awaits u, what it holds for us… I have many dreams, plans, but especially hope for the future. Hope that it will bring us better times than this present, hope that…

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