Author archive: noctovis
Summer
Summer. The most beautiful and fun time of the year. The sun, spreading its light and warmth all over my skin. The bees, buzzing over every flower that blooms, filling their tiny pockets to make that sweet thing called honey. The pollen, travelling through the wind, landing on my hair every now and then. Butterflies,…
Hormones, restored in their balance
A while ago I told you about how my hormone imbalance was driving me crazy. The terrible sadness and grief I already go through in this very difficult time, is worsened by the birth control pills I was taking to heal from the curettage they performed a few weeks earlier. I was barely holding on,…
Healing through creativity
Those amongst you who’ve known me personally before I started this blog, already know I was into photographing a while before loss. I’ve always loved taking pictures, and looking for angles to make a picture that little bit more special. When Frank and I decided to have kids, I went and bought myself a DSLR…
Celebrating the International day of Hope
If you’ve been following Carly Marie’s work (if not, check her out, she’s amazing), you know that August 19th is the international day of hope. The August 19th – Day of Hope Prayer Flag Project is a profoundly moving, poignant and peaceful way to break the silence surrounding the death of babies and children. This…
Hidden warnings
Lindsey wrote a post a few days ago that got me thinking of something that’s been going through my mind for almost three months now. She wonders if a thought might have changed the outcome of the pregnancy. If a thought or a dream that something is wrong, can actually make something go wrong. I…
Questions unanswered
Did I fail her? This is one of the questions that I constantly ask myself in my inner chit chat. Was there something I did wrong that caused her to get so sick? Did my body fail her somehow? Was she missing any nutrients? Was she experiencing any kind of stress caused by me? Could…
Reinventing myself after loss
Every single person you meet along your way has an impact on your life. Some impact your life in extraordinary ways, while others only change a few accents here and there. Just think about it. The very first persons that shape your life are your parents. The way they raise and educate you, form the…