This is part 3 of a series of posts I’ve been writing about how I am creating spaces at home to keep Sahar alive with us, to remember her always, and have everyone remember her with us when they see these spaces in our home. She was and will forever be my daughter, my firstborn,…
These last few weeks I’ve been struggling with a lot of fear, anxiety and worries. It’s holding me back in all my dreams and desires, and takes away the beauty in the everyday. I feel trapped in a hole I can’t get out of, and I realize that I’ve entered a vicious circle that I…
Tomorrow is the international day of hope. Tomorrow is a day in which we break the silence about our babies gone too soon, a day in which we celebrate their lives and their memory… It’s a day dedicated to our babies, a beautiful day. Since I have to go to work tomorrow, I decided to…
The future… That thing that brings a terrible amount of anxiety to my heart when I think about it. I wonder what’s coming, what awaits u, what it holds for us… I have many dreams, plans, but especially hope for the future. Hope that it will bring us better times than this present, hope that…
I had a terrible day today. A lot of things happened that transported me all the way back to the day my OB told me were going to lose our daughter, that she was never going to live, that she would never grow up, learn to walk, go to school, play with her friends, fall…
The second part of 2012 and 2013 has been a rough time for us. Lots of issues came our way that we weren’t expecting, that we weren’t prepared for. It seemed like everything was going wrong. Frank and I fought through it, and finally saw light in the darkness when we held that positive pregnancy…
Hello everyone! Just a quick note to inform you guys that I’m being featured as an Inspirational Bereaved Parent on Lindsey’s blog at Stillborn and Still Breathing! First of all I would like to say: If you’re here because you’re going through a loss, don’t hesitate to check out her blog. Her words are honest,…
Today I would like to share a story. A story of a bereaved mother I met through a mutual friend. It’s a story about a truly inspirational person, wife, friend and especially, a mother. A story of love, grief, loss, photography, beauty and healing. Sharon started blogging during her second pregnancy, to openly share her…
Today is that day again. The 7th of the month. The day that marks three months since Sahar joined and left this Earth on the same day. Whenever a new month starts my heart breaks a little, knowing that the 7th will soon arrive. I don’t like these days. They only mark how long she’s…
When we lost our baby, one of the first things I wanted to do was create a space for Sahar here at home. I’ve posted about it a few times already and I’m still working on it every single day. But it’s not only healing to create a space for your baby at home, it’s…