Healing through creativity

Healing through creativity

Those amongst you who’ve known me personally before I started this blog, already know I was into photographing a while before loss. I’ve always loved taking pictures, and looking for angles to make a picture that little bit more special. When Frank and I decided to have kids, I went and bought myself a DSLR…

Celebrating the International day of Hope

Celebrating the International day of Hope

If you’ve been following Carly Marie’s work (if not, check her out, she’s amazing), you know that August 19th is the international day of hope. The August 19th – Day of Hope Prayer Flag Project is a profoundly moving, poignant and peaceful way to break the silence surrounding the death of babies and children. This…

Hidden warnings

Hidden warnings

Lindsey wrote a post a few days ago that got me thinking of something that’s been going through my mind for almost three months now. She wonders if a thought might have changed the outcome of the pregnancy. If a thought or a dream that something is wrong, can actually make something go wrong. I…

Questions unanswered

Questions unanswered

Did I fail her? This is one of the questions that I constantly ask myself in my inner chit chat. Was there something I did wrong that caused her to get so sick? Did my body fail her somehow? Was she missing any nutrients? Was she experiencing any kind of stress caused by me? Could…

Reinventing myself after loss

Reinventing myself after loss

Every single person you meet along your way has an impact on your life. Some impact your life in extraordinary ways, while others only change a few accents here and there. Just think about it. The very first persons that shape your life are your parents. The way they raise and educate you, form the…

This messy life after loss

This messy life after loss

Today, I want to share some feelings and thoughts I have about this life after loss. Let’s look at it the other way around, let’s start with the bad, and finish with the good. Just to end with a positive note. Envy I envy many of my friends. Their “my kid had a nightmare”-sleepless nights,…

Seeking help

Seeking help

These last few weeks, I’ve been thinking a lot about how I’m handling the loss of our precious daughter. How I’m handling the most difficult time in my life, the time I thought I would never have to experience. I can only say, that I’m doing the very best I can. But I also realize,…

The very first boxes of hope

The very first boxes of hope

I cannot even begin to tell how very excited I am to be able to -finally- share this with you. In my journey around the web I found out about these beautiful boxes I could create to donate to other families going through the same terrible loss we did. It brings me great comfort and…

Choosing a path

Choosing a path

I went to the OB today for a checkup. I’ve been looking forward to this appointment for what seems like such a very long time. While I was sitting in that waiting room, looking at all those happy faces and big bellies, I had this storm of feelings completely overwhelming my heart… From hurt, grief,…

Healing through this beautiful community

Healing through this beautiful community

When we found out that our little girl had a condition she would never recover from, and that we would have to say goodbye to her, my world turned into a very dark place. I cried for days. And when I ran out of tears, I fired up my computer and started googling. Looking for…

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