Tag archive: baby loss

Why does the world keep turning?

Why does the world keep turning?

When Sahar died, I couldn’t understand that life just continued, that the Earth kept spinning, that the sun continued to rise and the night still fell. My world had stopped the moment the OB said those words: She will never be able to live. You’ve seen this scene in a movie a million times. Everything…

Loss is also a physical thing

Loss is also a physical thing

If you would have asked me to describe stillbirth, pregnancy or infant loss before I experienced mine, I would have used keywords such as: heartbreak, emotional trauma, psychological trauma, and so on. Although that’s all accurate, there’s a lot more to it than just the mental, emotional and psychological effects. Physical trauma plays a big…

The prayer flag project

The prayer flag project

Tomorrow is the international day of hope. Tomorrow is a day in which we break the silence about our babies gone too soon, a day in which we celebrate their lives and their memory… It’s a day dedicated to our babies, a beautiful day. Since I have to go to work tomorrow, I decided to…

Grief cannot be fixed

Grief cannot be fixed

It’s been almost three months since we lost our little girl. It’s not only hard to handle this loss, but it’s also very hard to handle all the comments and wrong reactions of the people around us. Although I realize that everyone means the very best for us, these comments are still hurtful. Here’s a…

About readiness

About readiness

Are you ready for a new pregnancy? When are you going to try for a new baby? These questions are popping up a lot lately. People around me see that I’m sad, that I’m grieving, that I’m hurting. And somehow, they want to fix my grief. And they do so by pushing the idea of…

Questions unanswered

Questions unanswered

Did I fail her? This is one of the questions that I constantly ask myself in my inner chit chat. Was there something I did wrong that caused her to get so sick? Did my body fail her somehow? Was she missing any nutrients? Was she experiencing any kind of stress caused by me? Could…

This messy life after loss

This messy life after loss

Today, I want to share some feelings and thoughts I have about this life after loss. Let’s look at it the other way around, let’s start with the bad, and finish with the good. Just to end with a positive note. Envy I envy many of my friends. Their “my kid had a nightmare”-sleepless nights,…

Menu