Tag archive: Fear

When it rains, it pours, and then some…

When it rains, it pours, and then some…

Life has a way of distracting us from that what matters the most. We get lost in the dance in which we juggle between work, our household, friends and everything in between. Even though I dedicate quite a lot of time of each day to thinking about my baby, remembering Sahar, and transforming this grief…

A confrontation with my thoughts

A confrontation with my thoughts

My child became sick inside my womb. She had no chromosomal deviations or other disorders that tend to manifest hand in hand with Hydrocephalus. She was a perfectly healthy, beautiful little girl, growing safely inside my womb. Then one day, the little tube in the brain that drains and recycles the fluids stopped working, for…

Coping with fear: Breathing

Coping with fear: Breathing

I’ve been reading up on techniques to handle anxiety and fear when they take over my thoughts and actions for a while now. One of the most simple techniques that keeps coming back in each and every resource I find about this topic, is breathing. It sounds crazy, but it truly is a very good…

Coping with fear, a new series

Coping with fear, a new series

These last few weeks I’ve been struggling with a lot of fear, anxiety and worries. It’s holding me back in all my dreams and desires, and takes away the beauty in the everyday. I feel trapped in a hole I can’t get out of, and I realize that I’ve entered a vicious circle that I…

Perspectives on the future

Perspectives on the future

The future… That thing that brings a terrible amount of anxiety to my heart when I think about it. I wonder what’s coming, what awaits u, what it holds for us… I have many dreams, plans, but especially hope for the future. Hope that it will bring us better times than this present, hope that…

Hope is the light in this darkness

Hope is the light in this darkness

Where will we be in a year from now? I used to be able to answer this questions with a bunch of plans, dreams, and actions, waiting to be realized. I would literally talk your ears off. Now, after loss, I ask myself this question every day, and I only have a bunch of question…

About readiness

About readiness

Are you ready for a new pregnancy? When are you going to try for a new baby? These questions are popping up a lot lately. People around me see that I’m sad, that I’m grieving, that I’m hurting. And somehow, they want to fix my grief. And they do so by pushing the idea of…

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