Tag archive: Fear

This messy life after loss

This messy life after loss

Today, I want to share some feelings and thoughts I have about this life after loss. Let’s look at it the other way around, let’s start with the bad, and finish with the good. Just to end with a positive note. Envy I envy many of my friends. Their “my kid had a nightmare”-sleepless nights,…

Seeking help

Seeking help

These last few weeks, I’ve been thinking a lot about how I’m handling the loss of our precious daughter. How I’m handling the most difficult time in my life, the time I thought I would never have to experience. I can only say, that I’m doing the very best I can. But I also realize,…

Choosing a path

Choosing a path

I went to the OB today for a checkup. I’ve been looking forward to this appointment for what seems like such a very long time. While I was sitting in that waiting room, looking at all those happy faces and big bellies, I had this storm of feelings completely overwhelming my heart… From hurt, grief,…

Hope for a new day

Hope for a new day

Yesterday was a beautiful day. I got up in the morning, immediately started my workout and had breakfast after. We went to the city, had a drink outside even when the weather wasn’t that inviting to do so. We went shopping for books. I bought an awesome ring I fell in love with. We went…

Going back to where it all happened…

Going back to where it all happened…

I went to my OB yesterday evening for what should have been a routine checkup, and as it turns out, I had to go in a for a small surgery. There were still small pieces of the placenta in there and they had to be surgically removed. They had to do what they call a…

The fight between fear and hope

The fight between fear and hope

I’ve always been the kind of person that looks forward to the future, to what tomorrow will bring. I’ve always believed that even when today didn’t offer what we hoped for, tomorrow could finally bring that change. Hope for the future. I’ve always believed that tomorrow would be better. Because it was in our hands…

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