Tag archive: Grief

Fading memories

Fading memories

I see my girl every single day in my mind. I can still see my big belly, I can still feel how it felt to rub it, thinking of my little girl growing inside. I have that vivid image in my brain of the moment my water broke and all those emotions of knowing she’d…

Hormone imbalance plus loss

Hormone imbalance plus loss

The day we conceive, our body starts to undertake major changes in our hormonal system to support that pregnancy so we can deliver a healthy baby. That is why we experience so many overwhelming emotions when we are pregnant. We react to that hormone imbalance by being very happy, very sad or even very mad….

Reminders from my subconscious self

Reminders from my subconscious self

May 7th 2013. I met my wonderful precious little baby girl… And then she died. As we buried our daughter, I buried myself in a dark coffin of tears, grief, emptiness, heartache and excruciating pain. Frank and I left to France for two weeks after her funeral, to try and find some peace in the…

Acting around people who’ve experienced loss

Acting around people who’ve experienced loss

Everyone will experience a loss sooner or later… Acquaintances, friends, parents, siblings, and in the worst of cases… children. This is the time when you need the support of your loved ones the most. It’s completely unnatural to lose a child. We were never taught what to do or say. Because although it happens, it’s still rare. Maybe I would have…

Hope for a new day

Hope for a new day

Yesterday was a beautiful day. I got up in the morning, immediately started my workout and had breakfast after. We went to the city, had a drink outside even when the weather wasn’t that inviting to do so. We went shopping for books. I bought an awesome ring I fell in love with. We went…

The same loss, a different journey in grief

The same loss, a different journey in grief

This is crazy… I mean, my OB told me, the social worker at the hospital told me, I read it in books, I even read about it on websites of fellow bereaved mothers: everyone grieves differently. You’d think that knowing that, you wouldn’t make the same mistakes. Yet I did. Because realizing this fact, isn’t…

Going back to where it all happened…

Going back to where it all happened…

I went to my OB yesterday evening for what should have been a routine checkup, and as it turns out, I had to go in a for a small surgery. There were still small pieces of the placenta in there and they had to be surgically removed. They had to do what they call a…

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