Tag archive: Love

The wall of hope

The wall of hope

When we lost our baby, one of the first things I wanted to do was create a space for Sahar here at home. I’ve posted about it a few times already and I’m still working on it every single day. But it’s not only healing to create a space for your baby at home, it’s…

Grateful for a moment of silence

Grateful for a moment of silence

Katrin and Alex’ wedding was beautiful. The most special day. The most magical event. Filled with bliss. Filled with joy. Filled with emotions. But especially with LOVE. Katrin and Alex arranged for a special time and space to remember the loved ones that were gone too soon and could not join us on this special…

It’s a special day today…

It’s a special day today…

Hello sweet baby girl! Today is a very special day, and I wanted to tell you all about it. Your aunt Kat is getting maried today, to the love of her life Alex. We travelled all the way to Romania to witness their love and attend their wedding. When your aunt was all busy planning…

Recognising her presence

Recognising her presence

It’s midday. Lunch-time. Everyone walks out of the office, to spend their break outside: sitting in the sun-shine, enjoying the good weather. I stay at my desk. Looking into the void. Lost in my own little world. Unconscious of what happens around me. I think of Sahar. I remember her beauty, her extraordinary little self….

Fading memories

Fading memories

I see my girl every single day in my mind. I can still see my big belly, I can still feel how it felt to rub it, thinking of my little girl growing inside. I have that vivid image in my brain of the moment my water broke and all those emotions of knowing she’d…

The blessing of saying goodbye

The blessing of saying goodbye

Yesterday I watched the movieĀ Meet Joe BlackĀ on tv. For those of you who’ve never seen it before, it’s a movie about death and love. Death takes the human form of Brad Pitt as he comes to guide Anthony Hopkins to the grave. Death gives Hopkins more time on Earth in exchange for staying with him,…

The same loss, a different journey in grief

The same loss, a different journey in grief

This is crazy… I mean, my OB told me, the social worker at the hospital told me, I read it in books, I even read about it on websites of fellow bereaved mothers: everyone grieves differently. You’d think that knowing that, you wouldn’t make the same mistakes. Yet I did. Because realizing this fact, isn’t…

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