Tag archive: New normal

Allowing healing

Allowing healing

I remember the first time I smiled after we lost Sahar. I didn’t even get to finish that smile when my heart filled with this unbearable weight and my mind was blaming me for having the audacity to smile, just when I had lost my baby, my firstborn. How could a smile have escaped me? How could that happen?…

Hope is the light in this darkness

Hope is the light in this darkness

Where will we be in a year from now? I used to be able to answer this questions with a bunch of plans, dreams, and actions, waiting to be realized. I would literally talk your ears off. Now, after loss, I ask myself this question every day, and I only have a bunch of question…

Hidden warnings

Hidden warnings

Lindsey wrote a post a few days ago that got me thinking of something that’s been going through my mind for almost three months now. She wonders if a thought might have changed the outcome of the pregnancy. If a thought or a dream that something is wrong, can actually make something go wrong. I…

Reinventing myself after loss

Reinventing myself after loss

Every single person you meet along your way has an impact on your life. Some impact your life in extraordinary ways, while others only change a few accents here and there. Just think about it. The very first persons that shape your life are your parents. The way they raise and educate you, form the…

This messy life after loss

This messy life after loss

Today, I want to share some feelings and thoughts I have about this life after loss. Let’s look at it the other way around, let’s start with the bad, and finish with the good. Just to end with a positive note. Envy I envy many of my friends. Their “my kid had a nightmare”-sleepless nights,…

2 months Angelversary

2 months Angelversary

Hello my very sweet baby… 2 months ago you left the protective environment of mommy’s womb to join this very beautiful Earth for just a few brief moments. A few brief moments that changed our lives forever… You filled our lives with the most raw and unconditional LOVE. You made us see what really matters…

First time for everything again

First time for everything again

It’s hard to describe, but when you experience a devastating trauma like the loss of a child, your life seems to begin again, in a different form. Everything that was once normal, obvious or natural, isn’t any more. You have to learn to do all these things, all over again, like a child does. That’s…

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