Tag archive: Rainbows

Transformation

Transformation

It’s been so long since I posted over here… And to be very honest, I had no specific plan to restart my blogging journey again. So much has happened, so many things have changed, that I somehow felt that I didn’t belong here anymore. At the same time, I couldn’t say goodbye to this place,…

The wall of hope

The wall of hope

When we lost our baby, one of the first things I wanted to do was create a space for Sahar here at home. I’ve posted about it a few times already and I’m still working on it every single day. But it’s not only healing to create a space for your baby at home, it’s…

Seeking help

Seeking help

These last few weeks, I’ve been thinking a lot about how I’m handling the loss of our precious daughter. How I’m handling the most difficult time in my life, the time I thought I would never have to experience. I can only say, that I’m doing the very best I can. But I also realize,…

Choosing a path

Choosing a path

I went to the OB today for a checkup. I’ve been looking forward to this appointment for what seems like such a very long time. While I was sitting in that waiting room, looking at all those happy faces and big bellies, I had this storm of feelings completely overwhelming my heart… From hurt, grief,…

Dreams, Reintroduced…

Dreams, Reintroduced…

When Sahar died, our world came crashing down. Every dream was shattered, every dream was broken, every dream was crushed, every dream became impossible, every dream became irrelevant, every dream became unreachable… I never, EVER thought I was going to be able to have dreams and hopes again, … ever… And now, slowly but steadily,…

Always a child missing

Always a child missing

Most people don’t really know what to say to a person that’s facing such a loss like we are. I’ve heard all the variations: Better now than later… It wasn’t meant to be… At least you know you can have children… Or the most common one: You can have other kids! I realize they are…

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